A Paler Shade of Beige

Oh boy, I feel horrible!  Like for realz!

Weird

I’ve started sleeping with my baby blanket, Kitty, again in a bizarre attempt to imbue him (yes, him) with my scent so I will have something comforting and familiar to take with me to Austin.  I haven’t even really acknowledged the blanket in the last 15 or so years, but I kept him draped around a picture that I like that is hanging on my wall.  It just seemed like the perfectly crazy thing to do!!!!

My mom suggested that I bring a favorite stuffed animal with me, but I don’t have any favorites at the moment and I dont really want to take the time to develop a relationship with a new one this late in the game!

dad

“Ok, Roger. Wake up.”
My dad after watching forty-five minute’s worth of time-lapsed water color paintings on youtube.

Man, I need to blog!

Like that little kid said in the Lovely Bones, I am in “the in-between.”  I am sick of work - and it seems really pointless to invest any time in a job that I will be leaving in….12 days - but I am not ready yet to move across the country to start a brand new everything (especially when I haven’t proven to be very good at maintaining an everything where I have lived for the past 21 years!)

People at work are pissing me off.  One person - who has gone out of her way to tell me what a great worker I am - semi-accused me of being ”probably signed off already,” in front of other employees.  At a meeting this morning, the whole group shared a similar sentiment!  I haven’t been signed on this entire year and they decide to give me crap about it now!  It seems so pointless, and if I didn’t want the reference, I would just leave and enjoy a snow day or something.

And to top it all off, I am so nervous about moving but I am trying to put on a big girl face about it because I am almost 27 and I probably wont become a selective mute when the plane lands in Austin, but you never really know til it happens!

Shit son!

I’m going to Austin, TX!  I get a three-day weekend in Denver, CO first!  I dont even know what to think, besides I am scared out of my ever-loving mind!

My new year’s resolution is to be less gross. Also, more tube tops.